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hey guys. im really really REALLY sorry i haven't put anything out in so long. i HAVEN'T given up on my fics or series stories. i'll give you a quick heads up about why i haven't been writing... ++me and my ex-fiance broke up. we were going through a horrid time and taking a break and getting back together...all that bullshit. the shit he put me through pretty much turned me into an alcoholc and all i did was get wasted every night either at home or some random party id find. i finally got over that after meeting my new man ++i gots me a new man! we started dating in december and he's pretty much amazing and takes up ALL my time. if im not sleeping or working, im with him. and sometimes im with him even when im sleeping ^_^ i didn't mean to abandom everything else in my life for him, but at the point i was at...i really needed to stop EVERYTHING and focus on one thing and i chose him. it really put me at a better place in life tho so im not sorry i did it. ++my brother was in a really horrible accident in october. he had a bad brain injury and even after coming home from the hospital, there was alot of issues with him. that pilled ontop of everything else going on was alot for me to handle. but he's better now...still has an episode every now and again...but better. ++ i, myself, ended up in the hospital after a bad incident, if you will. i was able to bullshit my way out of there like i usually do but it raised alot of eyebrows on people i didn't want suspecting anything. but it was worse than my past incidents and made a few things worse for me. ++ im having a few health problems that i need to get fixed. i lost my inssurance for a bit so i couldn't go to the doctors and things have been getting alot worse for me. my family has been comenting on my most recent big weight drop and i think i did more damage than i did good. i have a heart condition that seems to be getting worse along with a few other things i still need tests for. ++ i got suspended from school last semester and didn't even bother going this semester. it's got me all caught up in shit now and im really stuck. im trying to pay bills with my worthless job, find a new school, and get my life back on track. im also going to be moving in with my boyfriend here soon and my mother doesn't know. that's going to be a hell of a challenge telling her. my writing has taken a back seat (more like a spot in the trunk) to alot of other things in my life right now. ++and finally, my computer has been a piece of SHIT. more specifically, my internet. i don't understand why but hopfully i'll get things fixed here soon. i know that doesn't mean i can't write, but not being able to access the internet makes me forget about alot of things i did online or make me not want to bother fucking with it and getting mad trying to post something. sorry about that so that's it for now. i honestly can't say when the next post will be. i haven't written anything more for "starve me beautiful" since my last post. sorry. but hopefully i can get back into that here in the nxt few days...or weeks. lately ive been doing more song writing than fic writing but i'll try and switch back. please don't give up on me. i promised i wouldn't abandom any of my fics and i meant that.
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hehe um...hi. so basically i died over the summer and have magically come back to life. yays right? sooooooo sorry for the NOTHINGNESS i produced over the summer. alot alot of shit went down, my life completely fell to shit many a-times, some very good things happened but were few and far between so i was either in too shitty a modd to write or trying ym hardest to enjoy evry second of good i had to make time to write. but my writings block is slowly fading, my new job actually gives me time to have a life, and school ain't quite so bad this semester. so expect me to start popping stuff out. so here's the deal-i-o... ++i have half of the next chappy of Starve Me Beautiful written. ++i have alot of new material for my "Stab My Heart With the Dagger of the Past" series ++i have a new fic swirling around in my brain (but with this one, i plan to write alot of it out first, so that you guys aren't stuck waiting MONTHS for me to post a chapter) ++a few new oneshots and drabbles are planned and partially written ++and i have another side project consisting of connected oneshots in the works funny how school slows everyone else down but gets my gears in motion XD and unlike the past year, i only go to school 3 days a week now (phew!) and my new job really works well with my schedule and doesn't work the shit out of me or cause my stress levels to make me sick and pass out like DEB did ^_^ i can't make promises, cause you guys know how i get with all the "oh this weekend!"..."really soon!"..."almost finished!" then shit hits the fan and next thing you know, 4 months have past with nothing from me. hopefully you guys stick with and beleive in me and haven't forgotten about me --i still love all of you-- -Azura-
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Title: Stab My Heart With the Dagger of the Past ( Part One )
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Title: Kryptonite Disclaimer: don't own the characters but the story is mine ( Kryptonite )
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so to best ignore the shit going on in my life right now... (sry i haven't posted a new chappy but...im having trouble dealing with shit right now) ive decided to do something that makes me happy... reply to my commenters!!! yay sry it's taken me so long to do even this!
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Title: Starve Me Beautiful Disclaimer: Click here. (no, seriously!)
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Title: Starve Me Beautiful Disclaimer: Click here. (no, seriously!) Prologue ( Chapter 12 ) ( . ) ( Chapter 12 )
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Starve Me Beautiful Disclaimer Page I felt the need to create this to be sure and clear up things with my readers. Rather than have people jump down my throat about things, I decided to get it all out here just to people are aware of things I either didn’t make clear, or that they didn’t pick up on from reading. None of this is directed at any one person; but everyone who reads my fic. ( Read more... ) |
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Title: Starve Me Beautiful Prologue ( Chapter 11 )
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Title: Starve Me Beautiful Prologue ( Chapter 10 )
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omg shoot me in the face! i know...im a horrible horrible person for not updating in so long and for telling people "ill be updating soon...ill be updating soon" only to...not update at all. even with school being out for december i was hella buys with work. damn boos knew i wasn't in school and scheduled me for as many hours as her! and honestly...im crazy stuck on this chapter. every time i try to write more and think im getting somewhere...i end up deleting everything i just wrote cause i hate it and don't want the story to go in the direction i took it. so i keep starting over. but i swears i will work on it the next few days (since i won't be closing at work i can work on it before i go to bed...plus i have off the next 2 days) and im REALLY making it my goal to have somehting out by this weekend. after this chapter things should really go more quickly and smoothly. im just having troubles transitioning from where the story is at now to where it's going to be...know what i mean? anyways...hope you all don't hate me. and who deleted their comments? hmmmm....
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alrighty...for those who are my friends on here...just letting you know i should hopefully be able to update this weekend. im really effing stuck on this chapter but im trying my hardest. ive also been going through some shit lately that has kept me from even being in front of my computer. also keep in mind midterms weren't too long ago, finals are coming up, i have presentations and term papers due out my ass...im a mess. there's also something REALLY pissing me off lately about my work and about other people. i don't know if what im pissed about is inspiration to write even more now...or to just fucking stop cause it's not like it'd matter, right? my fics were my babies...thanks for ruining it people! sry. im just pissed about alot right now.
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Title: Promise Me ( Onto le fic! )
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Title: Starve Me Beautiful
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Title: Starve Me Beautiful Prologue ( Chapter 9 )
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Title: Starve Me Beautiful
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Title: Starve Me Beautiful Prologue ( Chapter 8 )
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just thought i'd post a quick note about ym story "Starve Me Beautiful" No, the combination of school and work didn't kill me (entirely) And no, I sure as hell haven’t forgotten about it. But now that I’m working this semester, my time to write is cut way more than just in half. I know I said I would try to post on weekends, and I still plan to do that; but last weekend just didn’t work out for me. I had honestly, woken up and just sat down to start writing Saturday morning when work called and made me come in for a double shift both Saturday AND Sunday. I’ve tried jotting ideas down and such during any free time I’ve had, but I’m honestly kinda stuck at the moment. Writer’s block sucks ass, especially when it strikes you only during the few quick moments you have to write. I’m also attending school with one of my best friends this semester that I haven’t been able to see much of at all, so I’ve been spending a lot of my at school free time with her. But I will NOT stop writing this fic, and it is NOT on hiatus either. It just happened to take 2 weeks instead of one to post this chapter, and for that I apologize. I’ll try my hardest to have the next one up either tomorrow or Sunday. I don’t know my hours for Sunday yet, but I’m hoping they are zero, or very small ones. So I hope you guys haven’t given up on me or anything like that. And like I said, I’m trying to get something posted hopefully by tomorrow. Azura
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